Change

Yeah look

I don't do ** I'm addicted to the pain though

Yeah I been on it for a while dunno how to put it down

Gotta have it it's a habit I'ma break though

I just wanna take a hit keep sayin' I'ma quit

Keep sayin' I'ma leave but I stay though

I just want a little fix I don't wanna take a risk

I don't like it when I drift from the safe zone

But lately I been thinkin' I'ma have to

Lettin' go of things that I'm attached to

World don't stop just because I'm in a bad mood

You don't know what love is

'Til you holdin' onto somethin' that you can't lose

I swear I'm tryna get it together

Sleeves up puttin' work in tryna be better

I like to rap but I ain't gon' do it forever

Forget to charge up my focus and I'm holdin' my head up

Moment I get up I just wanna know I'm doin' my best

And if I'm not Lord forgive me you can handle regrets

'Cause I can feel the water tryna go up over my head

Most of my life I always felt like I was holdin' my breath

Holdin' my chest to be honest so I'm tired of it

Lookin' for somethin' in my life to be inspired again

I like to walk around and act like I don't know what it is

But I know what it is I just never wanna commit

Runnin' from change

I'm lookin' for change

I'm searchin' for change

I'm lookin' for change

I just want I just want change

Yeah I don't like new things

Got a lot of mood swings

Oh you wanna tell me somethin' negative

I don't wanna hear what you think

Yeah tossin' in my sleep

Every night feel like two weeks

Thinkin' 'bout how I could have done this or done that better

Can't help it that's just me

Lies that's me avoidin' the change

Yeah that's probably why the issues ain't goin' away

Yeah that's probably why I always sit around and complain

Tellin' myself that I ain't never gettin' out of this place

Out of my face if you tellin' me I need to be different

That's the issue though I'm always insecurity-driven

Takin' the wrong turns actin' like I know where I'm headed

Waitin' for somethin' bad to happen I can snap any minute

I need change

Yeah that's kinda easy to say right

But difficult to do when I feel like I hate life

And everyone around me kinda thinks I'm a great guy

But I don't ever think it so I think I'm a fake liar

Change

It somethin' that I know I should do

I'm a little uncomfortable to tell you the truth

But to be honest with you lately I got nothin' to lose

See I've always been full of pain but now I'm makin' some room

Lookin' for change

I'm lookin' for change

I'm searchin' for change

I'm lookin' for change

I just want I just want

I need a moment of silence

I don't like change but I'll try it

I don't wanna hear what I should or I shouldn't do

Why are they always defiant

See all my emotions are liars

All my emotions are violent

They don't want freedom to find me

Mention a name and everybody riots

Change

Yeah that's why I'm checkin' my vitals

They keep on workin' but I know

Breathin' don't mean you're alive so

I bag up all of my trash and walk out on my tightrope

Positive thoughts are my rivals

Change

I'm tryna be on their side though

Should I feel comfortable

I don't

Last year I felt suicidal

This year I might do somethin' different like talkin' to God more

I'm lookin' for change

I'm lookin' for

Yeah

I'm searchin' for change

I'm lookin' for

I just want I just want change

I'm lookin' for

Yeah

I'm searchin' for change

I'm lookin' for yeah

Ayy ayy

I just want I just want change

Yeah I'm lookin' for

Lookin' for

I'm searchin' for change

I'm lookin' for

Yeah

I just want I just want change

I'm lookin' for

Ayy

I'm searchin' for change

Ayy

I'm lookin' for yeah

I just want I just want change