Bad Husband

We never saw from each other's sides or eye to eye

Just eye for eye lie for lie fight or flight

So much baggage need a luggage rack

But we carry on with our public spats and our feuds

Oh back in the news love taps when I dissed you

Like it was fun actually used to run

Back to the booth jump back in the studio

Give you a tongue lasher than you

Laughed at a stomach tat with the tomb stone

It was funny back in our youth

But then it wasn't after we knew

That we were done and actually through and actually through

But if there's one fraction of truth

If it could be spun back I would do so many things different

'Cause it was such a dumbass excuse

You hit me once and that I would use

To continue the pattern of abuse

Why did I punch back

Girls your dad is a scumbag

I'm confused because

How come you can be a lord and a loser

How come how come you can be a liar and a good father

A good dad but a bad husband

Why are you a good father

A great dad but a bad husband

You wouldn't beat our love with a writer's block

Just a line that's hot that I forgot

We laughed a little cried a lot

I'll never forget when you came home and you held Hailie

Day before you went to jail and daily

How we would wait for that mail lady

Or by the phone for mom to call

And I watch you pull yourself up

And we decided on giving it one more try despite it all

You're my lightning rod when my sky gets dark

I'm your shiny rocks in that tiny box

When we tied the knot when we broke the knot

Every line we crossed we were supposed to not

Every time we fought being stones they got

Thrown too far

Words that we said that we didn't mean

The words that we meant that we didn't say

The ones that we thought that shoulda said

Letters written that we coulda read

Which maybe woulda lead to some good instead

And had this put to bed

But I'd be lying still if I said I wouldn't sitting here asking myself

How come you can be a lord and a loser

How come how come you can be a liar and a good father

A good dad but a bad husband

Why are you a good father

A great dad but a bad husband

Dad you said

Forever be a ** ** my eyes

I reply

But there's always another side to a good father

A great dad but a bad husband

We brought out the worst in each other

Someone had to make the sparring end

'Cause I loved you but I hated that me

And I don't wanna see that side again

But I'm sorry Kim

More than you could ever comprehend

Leaving you was f**king harder than

Sawing off a f**king body limb

Once upon a time where all we had

Maybe that was what drew us to each other

It was true love sh*t that we never knew was possible

We might have loved each other too much

And maybe that's what made us do what we did to each other

All the screw-ups

'Cause you always thought that you was more in love with me

And I was thinking I was more in love than you was

For all the times that we thought it worked

'Til we saw how wrong we were

When the dust settles now and all the dirt

And if I touch the rawest nerve

All I want is for us not to hurt

And it's been an exhaustive search to find the words

But I just heard Mockingbird

And got the urge to jot me some verses and thoughts

The purpose was not to stir up open wounds

I've caused got a few and so have you

Or argue whose fault it was partly yours partly mine

But really no ones this is so tough

I'm getting choked up

Oh f**k it we both suck

We broke up got back together

We both thought we had forever

Not bad people just bad together

We was so nuts backstabbed each other

Another blow struck but there's no ducking this blow

'Cause it's over and it's closure

But I'm not so sure how to close this I just don't know

How some people can be so good

At one thing and so f**ked at a whole 'nother sh*t

It's no wonder

How come

How come you can be a lord and a loser

How come how come you can be a liar and a good father

A good dad but a bad husband

Why are you a good father

A great dad but a bad husband

Dad you said

Forever be a ** ** my eyes

I reply

But there's always another side to a good father

A great dad but a bad husband