Mansion

In cities is blind deception

What's reality with all these questions

Feels like I missed my alarm

I've been slept in slept in broken legs

But I chase perfection

These walls are my blank expression

My mind is a home I'm trapped in

And it's lonely inside this mansion

You're my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics

They're all over the place

The songs in the mirrors written all over the floors

All over the chairs

And you get the uncut version of life

When I go downstairs I swear I write

When I'm in a bad place

I need to release and let out the version of nf

You don't wanna see

I put holes in the walls with

Both of my fists till they bleed

You might get a glimpse of high **

With all this anger in me physically abused

Now that's the room that I don't wanna be in

That picture ain't blurry at all

I just don't wanna see it

These walls ain't blank

I just think I don't wanna see him but why not

I'm in here so I might as well read them

I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around

Wish I could take a match and burn this old

Room to the ground

Matter of fact I think I'm a burn this room right now

Somehow this memory for some reason just wound

Do you blow me in the corner

So you could see the fear in my eyes

Then took me downstairs and beat me till I scream

Then I cry congratulations

You'll always have a room in my mind

But I'mma keep the door shutting

Like the lyrics inside

Insidious is blind

Conception what's reality with all these questions

Feels like I missed my alarm

And slapped in and slapped in

Broken legs but I chase perfection

These walls are my blank expression

My mind is a home I'm trapped in

And it's slowly inside this mansion

Inside this mansion

Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain

See my problem is I don't fix things

I just try to repay

Cover them up like it never happened

I wish I could change

Are you confused

Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean

This one full of regrets just keeps getting full of it

Seems moment I walk into it

The same moment that I wanna leave

I get sick to my stomach

Every time I look at these things

But it's hard to look past

When this is the room where I see

I look around

One of the worst things I wrote on these walls

What's the moment I realized that I was losing my mind

And one of the first things I wrote was

I wish I would have called but I should just stop now

We ain't got enough room in this serve

And I regret the fact

That I struggle trying to find who I am

And I lie to myself

Say I do the best that I can

Shrug it off like it ain't nothing

Like it's out of my hand

They get ticked off whenever I see it

Affecting my plans

And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive

And at the rate I'm going

I'll probably still be there when I die

Congratulations

You'll always have a room

In my mind the question is

Will I ever clean the walls off in time

In cities as blind inception

What's reality with all these questions

Feels like I missed my alarm and slapped in

And slapped in

Broken legs but I chase perfection

These walls are my blank expression

My mind is a home I'm trapped in

And it's lonely inside this mansion

Inside this mansion

Part of my house

No one's been in it for years

I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there

Cause if I do

There's a chance that they might disappear

And I come back

And I

I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside

So I just leave my doors lock

You might get other doors to open up but this

Door's not cause I don't want you to have

The opportunity to hurt me

And I'll be the only person

That I can blame when you desert me

I'm barricaded inside so stop watching

I'm not coming to the door so stop knocking

Stop knocking I'm trapped here

Gotta keep saying I'm not locked I chose this

I am lost in my own conscience

I know that certain

The world out ain't solving a problem

But I didn't build this house

Because I thoughtit was someone

I built it because I thought that it was safer in there

But it's not

I'm not the only thing that's living in here

Beer came to my houseyears ago

I let him in maybe that's a problem

Cause I've been dealing with this ever since

I thought that he would leave

But it's obvious he never did

He must have picked a room and got

Comfortable and settled in

Now I'm in a position

It's either sit here and let him win

I put him back outside where it came from

But I never can

Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors

Is that me or the fear talking I don't know anymore

Inside you

Inside you

Slowly slowly

Oh yeah it's lonely

Saw this mansion