Have nightmares each week
About that friday in may
One phone call from you and my entire world has changed
Trust that you betrayed
Confusion that still lingers
Took everything I loved
And crushed it in between your fingers
And I don't you ever think
About the damage that you did
But I hold on to every detail
Like my life depends on it
My undying love
Now I hold it like a grudge
And I hear your voice
Every time that I think I'm not enough
And I try to be tough
But I wanna scream
How could anybody do
The things you did so easily
And I say I don't care
Say that I'm fine
But you know I can't let it go
I've tried I've tried I've tried for so long
It takes strength to forgive but I don't feel strong
The arguments that I have won against you in my head
In the shower in the car and in the mirror before bed
Yeah I'm so tough when I'm alone
And I make you feel so guilty
And I fantasize
About a time you're a little ** sorry
And I try to understand why you would do this all to me
You must be insecure
You must be so unhappy happy and I know in my heart
Hurt people hurt people
We both drew blood but man those cuts were never equal
And I try to be tough
But I wanna scream
How could anybody do
The things you did so easily
And I say I don't care
I say that I'm fine
But you know I can't let it go
I've tried I've tried I've tried for so long
It takes strength to forgive but
I don't feel strong
Do you think I deserve it all
Your flowers filled with vitriol
You built me up to watch me fall
With everything you still want more
I try to be tough
I try to be mean
Even after all this you're still everything to me
And I know you don't care
I guess that's fine
But you know I can't let it go
I've tried I've tried I've tried for so long
It takes strength to forgive but
I'm not quite sure I'm there yet
It takes strength to forgive but